Sharing Life and Death

Sharing Life and Death

Was it an echo reverberating back through Time?

What did I hear

In the silence between heartbeats?

Why did I cry

So spontaneously

At such an inappropriate moment?

How did I know

What I could never, ever

Have realized?

I asked you to walk me down the aisle

Twenty-two and a half years before

You asked me to walk down the same aisle

For you.

Of course, I was crying—

Long before I knew what you would suffer,

Long before your diagnosis,

Long before your death.

I cry now too.

What did we know then,

You holding back your tears

While mine spilled freely?

Could you have imagined the echo?

Not then, not ever.

I knew that I felt alone

While surrounded by those who loved me most.

What do I know?

What can I know?

What will I know

When I admit all that can be known?

Did I hear an echo?

Did time warp around itself?

Why do I wish I could go back

With the understanding I now embody?

Written 12 29 04